DON'T CRY FOR ME

When I say I love you, please believe it’s true. When I say forever, know I’ll never leave you. When I say goodbye, promise me you won’t cry. Cause the day I’ll be saying that would be the day I die..

AFRAID OF LOSING YOU

It's a great feeling when you know someone is keeping you

Someone gives you strength when you wake up each morning

Someone is going to protect you

Someone's going to be there when you need somebody

Someone's going to hug you when you need one

When someone's going to send you some morning messages

When someone's going to say: "Hey babe, have you eaten? I love you. Take Care"

When someone's going to call you in the middle of the night just to say "I love you"

When he's going to call you in the 12:01am of your birthday

I have courage to face everything because I have you

I'm not afraid of anything in this world,

As long as I have you

But I'm just afraid to lose you

To leave me

And if you blow me away

When some people are trying to pull us away , we don't know

Maybe destiny is trying to pick us up or trying to destroy us

I don't know

Sometimes I try to give up

But the moment I think of it, I think about why I held for so long

But It's worth it

Cause I know someone's going to catch me when I fall

And I know that it's YOU.

The one who made me feel extra ordinary

The one I couldn't sleep if I can't think of him

The one who always held me hands

The one that loves me is my HUBBY

I cried, I've been hurt

But realized, it wasn't love at all

It was just a mere infatuation

But now, I'm really sure of what I felt

It's love and I couldn't think of any

He had me at my best

He had me at my worst

What more can I ask for?

I hope he's the one I'm going to marry

But destiny's going to keep us apart

I hope you'd never give up

You'd never give up in times of troubles and fears

'Cause I believe, Love conquers all even fear

I want to keep you forever

And stay away from everything that wants to keep us apart

I love you, swear and that's what I'm certain of

You gave me your everything, I did to

I never thought you'd made me feel this special

And I didn't know you simply became my life

Can you promise me something?

That you'd never leave me? never ever never ever ever ever.

Please don't.

Please don't give up on us.

'Cause I fought for you

And I loved you right

The only thing that I'm afraid of is, LOSING YOU

- LOVE LETTER FOR MY HUBBY-

I BLOG TO EXPRESS NOT TO IMPRESS

I am just a girl who could never be perfect

An obnoxious one who's been hated by everybody

I can't be perfect and will never be

I'm tired of living in this judge mental world

Where everyone judges you in who you are and what you are

I'm done trying

I'm done pretending

But it will always return to who I really was

I was never perfect

But I'm trying to be a better one for them to love me

No matter how hard I try, it can't still be

I've been labeled many times

Feeling Close because I wanted to be popular

Feeling Pretty because I wanted to be pretty

Bitch because I was so friendly

Slut because I am so kind

Flirt because I was being friendly with guys

Immature because I am still young and innocent

But you know what hurts the most?

When you are being judged by who you are

Why do they really need to label on people?

Why do they need to judge people?

In fact, the ones who judged are also the one who needs to be judged

We aren't perfect, I am not perfect

But why should we?

As of now, I'm happy being who I am today

I am happy being unique, weird, emotional and contented

I am happy for the ones who loved me and who's always there for me

IT HURTS..

Too many things has happened in the short period of limited time. It hurts to touch, it hurts to look, it hurts to feel, it hurts to smell, it hurts to hear, but no matter how much it hurts, I still have to go through it. Long has it stayed and slowed. Bear with the pain, thats what voices behind my head tell me. I listen to them, I'm just hoping my feet is still able to keep standing. First day and It's scary.


I wonder what you're doing, I've lost too many chances and have not even realize anything. Confusion and desperation mixing together. I have no idea what to do anymore. I'm lost and I'm scarred by a wound of regret. Too many times have it stuck to my head and been pinned down on me. I take full responsibility and I take all the blame.

I've no idea. What to do.

~BABE~

BETAPA BERHARGANYA SEORANG WANITA

Ketika Tuhan menciptakan wanita, malaikat datang dan bertanya,”Mengapa begitu lama engkau menciptakan wanita, Tuhan???”
Tuhan menjawab,”Sudahkah engkau melihat setiap detail yang telah aku ciptakan untuk wanita?” Lihatlah dua tangannya mampu menjaga banyak anak pada saat bersamaan, punya pelukan yang dapat menyembuhkan sakit hati dan kerisauan, dan semua itu hanya dengan dua tangan”.
Malaikat menjawab dan takjub,”Hanya dengan dua tangan? tidak mungkin!
Tuhan menjawab,”Tidakkah kau tahu, dia juga mampu menyembuhkan dirinya sendiri dan boleh bekerja 18 jam sehari”.
Malaikat mendekati dan mengamati wanita tersebut dan bertanya,”Tuhan, kenapa wanita terlihat begitu lelah dan rapuh seolah-olah terlalu banyak beban baginya?”
Tuhan menjawab,”Itu tidak seperti apa yang kau bayangkan, itu adalah air mata.”
“Untuk apa???”, tanya malaikat.
Tuhan melanjutkan,”Air mata adalah salah satu cara dia menunjukkan kegembiraan,kerisauan,cinta,kesepian, penderitaan,dan kebanggaan,serta wanita ini mempunyai kekuatan mempesona lelaki,ini hanya beberapa kemampuan yang dimiliki oleh wanita.
Dia dapat mengatasi beban lebih baik dari lelaki,dia mampu menyimpan kebahagiaan dan pendapatnya sendiri,dia mampu tersenyum ketika hatinya menjerit kesedihan,mampu menyanyi ketika menangis, menangis saat terharu,bahkan tertawa ketika ketakutan.
Dia berkorban demi orang yang dicintainya,dia mampu berdiri melawan ketidakadilan,dia menangis saat melihat anaknya adalah pemenang,dia gembira dan bersorak saat kawannya tertawa bahagia,dia begitu bahagia mendengar suara kelahiran.
Dia begitu bersedih mendengar berita kesakitan dan kematian,tapi dia mampu mengatasinya.Dia tahu bahwa sebuah ciuman dan pelukan dapat menyembuhkan luka.
Allah S.W.T berfirman:
“Ketika Aku menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi seorang yang istimewa. Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia, namun, harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan.”
“Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya. ”
“Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika orang-orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh.”
“Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya.”
“Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk menyokong suaminya dalam kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi hatinya.”
“Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu.”
“Dan akhirnya, Aku memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan. Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan bila pun ia perlukan.”
“Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya,sosok yang ia tampilkan, atau bagaimana ia menyisir rambutnya.Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya, kerana itulah pintu hatinya, tempat dimana cinta itu ada.”
“CINTANYA TANPA SYARAT. HANYA ADA SATU YANG KURANG DARI WANITA,DIA SELALU LUPA BETAPA BERHARGANYA DIA…”

LOSING FAITH

OH GOD HELP ME..


It's hurt inside me now..
Feel like wanna run from all of this.. From all of people around me..
Lock up myself once again..
Just like i used to be..
Long time ago..